Letting Go - Day 5

About a year ago (August of 2020) I felt this theme for my life of “letting go”. I believed the universe was showing up through lack, abundance and friendship that a change was imminent. And in order to get what I needed I had to let go. What exactly letting go looked like I wasn’t sure. I spent months thinking I was letting go and attempting to do so but was feeling stuck.

Sure enough this theme held fast because I hadn’t truly let go. My friend Savvy came on my podcast and she said one line about letting go that hit me in the heart. When you truly surrender, you are letting go of the expectation of the outcome. In that moment I realized I was an imposter. I was pretending to let go, I was telling myself to let go, I was journaling about letting go but I still held on to the outcome I wanted.

It’s simple, not easy. The next day I finally opened my heart by letting go of any expectation of the outcome. For the first time I became okay with whatever life brought, I was no longer just saying that. And in that moment my life changed - there wasn’t a big bang or flash of light, but I could feel my body change from the inside out.

I’m here to tell you that you are exactly where you are meant to be.

I firmly believe life is working out for us, even in spit of the hurt and challenges. I’m also smart enough to know it doesn’t always make sense , but it will shape our future. And when you get truly let go of the expectation you can show up fully yourself. And when you show up fully yourself anything is possible.

Because more often than not when you don’t get what you want you get what you need.